Explosions or Implosions

I feel like my mind is going to explode. I want to express myself, but am unable to. I have to write a report. A major one to be submitted on April 15, 2018. I feel as if we are being forced to write an ode to something that was not taught to us. We attended a PGCC (Post Graduate Certificate Course) and it was a futile effort to come up with some healthy practices for the classroom via this course.

Age

I would like to think I have lived some milestones in my life. I got good grades in University, an okay job, respected by some, marriage and then kids. I started working again. When I first heard Wide Open by Chemical Brothers. I felt as if my existence got questioned. The words for song go like
(just copied these off google)

"I'm wide open
But don't I please you anymore?
You're slipping away from me
You're drifting away from me

I'm wide open
But don't I please you anymore?
You're slipping away from me
You're slipping away from me"

I feel they used the analogy of a football game. Where there has to be teamwork and the synergy usually results in a satisfying end. 

"One day just gonna see me
Look back and forth from the ceiling
(I'm wide open) some day love's gonna hurt me
Turn back and soon I'll believe it"

I think it was the video that left me mesmerized. I kept listening to the song over and over again. I have been at it since last year. 

SIgh

Now the cranberries is playing. The lead singer just died out of the blue. I was sad. I can't help myself. I feel sad very easily.